[ he's never followed percy as much as percy follows annabeth, because he's always clung to the shadows, half ashamed of his feelings for the sea's favored son. and maybe that's why annabeth had earned percy's love (though that's a lie and nico knows it; he knows he's deluding himself if he thinks he ever had a chance.) but nico has sacrificed for love so he knows just how selfless and selfish it can be.
he wants to argue about all the way things could've been different. about how he could've pushed himself and shadow traveled to catch them, could have gone down with them and led the way, could have reached a little farther but he knows it's useless. the past cannot be changed. ]
you're an idiot, percy jackson, if you thought i was thinking about everyone i was selfish too. i always have been.
my bad i guess thinking of someone else first doesn't make you very noble
[ he knows what Nico's getting at now. he feels embarrassed still to not have noticed sooner. or maybe it's being called an idiot that makes him red in the face. being called out is not his favorite past time. add it to the skip list. as far as guilt goes, he knows he can't absolve Nico of the responsibility he feels. in some ways, the two of them have much in common and that's one of them. ]
it's a big deal if you can't remember anything else after a nightmare, remember that we got out
of course not not when you do it because you want that person to notice you but that doesn't matter anymore. like you said, you got out. i got out. i'm past all that.
[ a bald face lie. he's not past it and with each new day being so close to percy, he realizes that he maybe isn't as over percy as he originally thought. maybe living with him (and annabeth) might not be the best idea. but he's being selfish again, wanting to be near the only other people who understand a little about what it's like to be him. ]
i don't believe that i mean yeah it was a part of it but that doesn't change that you're a good person you think i haven't done the wrong thing for the right reasons? or the right thing for the wrong reasons? because i have over and over again we all want someone to notice us mortal or immortal and i know you are i'm not trying to dig anything up you have Will i'm glad that the two of you found each other
[ he's making an effort to really get to know Nico is all. what motivates him, what makes him want to hold on, what makes him happy. things like that. ]
i'll let you know when we find a place, okay? you can pop by and give us a yay or nay
[ that reference will just fly right over his head. ]
what i meant was that i don't mind whatever apartment or house or whatever we get but it's good to know i won't be shoved back in the closet coming out of it was hard enough.
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he wants to argue about all the way things could've been different. about how he could've pushed himself and shadow traveled to catch them, could have gone down with them and led the way, could have reached a little farther but he knows it's useless. the past cannot be changed. ]
you're an idiot, percy jackson, if you thought i was thinking about everyone
i was selfish too. i always have been.
but yes. either way, we survived.
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i guess thinking of someone else first doesn't make you very noble
[ he knows what Nico's getting at now. he feels embarrassed still to not have noticed sooner. or maybe it's being called an idiot that makes him red in the face. being called out is not his favorite past time. add it to the skip list. as far as guilt goes, he knows he can't absolve Nico of the responsibility he feels. in some ways, the two of them have much in common and that's one of them. ]
it's a big deal
if you can't remember anything else after a nightmare, remember that
we got out
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not when you do it because you want that person to notice you
but that doesn't matter anymore.
like you said, you got out.
i got out.
i'm past all that.
[ a bald face lie. he's not past it and with each new day being so close to percy, he realizes that he maybe isn't as over percy as he originally thought. maybe living with him (and annabeth) might not be the best idea. but he's being selfish again, wanting to be near the only other people who understand a little about what it's like to be him. ]
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i mean yeah it was a part of it
but that doesn't change that you're a good person
you think i haven't done the wrong thing for the right reasons?
or the right thing for the wrong reasons?
because i have
over and over again
we all want someone to notice us
mortal or immortal
and i know you are
i'm not trying to dig anything up
you have Will
i'm glad that the two of you found each other
[ he's making an effort to really get to know Nico is all. what motivates him, what makes him want to hold on, what makes him happy. things like that. ]
i'll let you know when we find a place, okay?
you can pop by and give us a yay or nay
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i'm sure whatever you guys pick out will be fine.
i don't need much
i've gone without a bed and room plenty of times.
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you're getting a room
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what i meant was that i don't mind whatever apartment
or house or whatever we get
but it's good to know i won't be shoved back in the closet
coming out of it was hard enough.
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not what i meant
nobody wants to put you back in there
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not the closet that is
i don't think you've ever even seen the inside
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but no
i've never walked into, been around, or been in the closet
or any closet related activities
[ what......is......this conversation? ]
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obviously.
i mean, with annabeth around i'm sure
when you two finally get hitched,
i'll ask my step-mom to do the flower arrangements
;)