[ it's partly nico's fault, he thinks, blindly and arrogantly charging into tartarus believing he could save the day by closing the doors of death and maybe garner percy's attention. like how he'd selfishly wanted percy to bathe in the styx, ensuring percy's survival. as a result, he's felt he has to face the nightmares and flashbacks on his own.
will had helped some, soothed away a few of the nightmares. but will could never understand what he saw down there. annabeth and percy can't really either, not having seen the reality of tartarus like he had as a child of hades. however, they know better than anyone else. something in nico aches to be near them because of that. ]
yeah if there's anyone who gets it, it's you guys. i wish you hadn't had to face it though i should've been stronger i should've been able to pull you both up.
[ on the nights when the arais haunt his mind, this is what he's reminded of. his failure and percy's suffering as a result.
(and here, still, he tells himself that percy doesn't matter that much to him anymore. what a joke.) ]
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will had helped some, soothed away a few of the nightmares. but will could never understand what he saw down there. annabeth and percy can't really either, not having seen the reality of tartarus like he had as a child of hades. however, they know better than anyone else. something in nico aches to be near them because of that. ]
yeah if there's anyone who gets it, it's you guys.
i wish you hadn't had to face it though
i should've been stronger
i should've been able to pull you both up.
[ on the nights when the arais haunt his mind, this is what he's reminded of. his failure and percy's suffering as a result.
(and here, still, he tells himself that percy doesn't matter that much to him anymore. what a joke.) ]