[ the melting godling under him makes him grin even more. something he tries to hide against loki's lips and then in the crook of his neck. his hands continue to move, though, almost as if he's trying to memorize every inch of loki. nico holds no illusions about what this might be. he knows how much loki needs to be needed, wanted, adored. he's willing to give that to loki because the godling does mean a lot to him. the potential is there to fall in love with him. he's given almost all of himself to loki already. but the darker parts of him are still withheld if only because he refuses to let himself fall completely. not when loki loves dick, not when part of him still loves percy (and might always love him), and definitely not when will is waiting for him back home.
it's... painful, in a way, but nico is used to pain and the ache of bruised or hurt emotions. it's an example of how strong he has become over the years, but also an example of how often he allows himself to be the martyr. he can't help it, not when there's always the possibility that the people in his life whom he loves will eventually disappear. ]
Then I'll take as much as I can get until I do get sick.
[ it's like an oath of sorts and he reaches a hand up to trail fingers through loki's hair. ]
Are you good? Usually, you need to go a few more rounds.
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it's... painful, in a way, but nico is used to pain and the ache of bruised or hurt emotions. it's an example of how strong he has become over the years, but also an example of how often he allows himself to be the martyr. he can't help it, not when there's always the possibility that the people in his life whom he loves will eventually disappear. ]
Then I'll take as much as I can get until I do get sick.
[ it's like an oath of sorts and he reaches a hand up to trail fingers through loki's hair. ]
Are you good? Usually, you need to go a few more rounds.